The Noise Simulator: A Look Inside the DDE Brain
Imagine a voice in your head that never shuts up.
Not your thoughts—something louder. Meaner. Relentless.
Now imagine it arguing with you all day long.
Telling you not to eat.
Telling you to drink.
Telling you you’re not enough—no matter what you do.
That’s the noise. So watch the video below….Turn it up. This is what it actually sounds like inside our minds.
This simulator video was inspired by the “Gender Noise Simulator” created by Ayden Olson-Kennedy, which I discovered through Dr. Shawn V. Giammattei and The Trans Alliance site.
The moment I heard it, something clicked.
The video below is a ‘travel vlog’—and a glimpse into what it’s like to watch the world through a hijacked brain, where constant intrusive thoughts make it nearly impossible to be fully present )
Most people think recovery is simple.
They say things like:
“Just eat the burger.”
“Why can’t you just stop drinking?”
“Just lose the weight—you’ll feel better.”
But those words don’t help. They hit like gasoline on a fire.
Because they miss the point entirely.
Inside our brains, there’s a constant, glitchy frequency.
Like a radio you can’t turn off—
one that only plays your worst fears and loudest insecurities.
“ED” is in there, counting every calorie before it even touches your lips—
telling you to throw it up the second you’re done.
“The Alcoholic” is there too,
counting down the hours…waiting for the moment you can finally drink.
It doesn’t stop. It doesn’t quiet down. It doesn’t give you a break.
So no—we’re not just “trying to get by.” We’re fighting.
Every hour. Every decision. Every bite. Every urge.
We are fighting a thousand invisible voices that refuse to shut up.
To you—the one who’s struggling:
This is why I made this.
Because I know what it’s like when your own mind won’t give you a break.
When everything looks fine on the outside… but inside, it’s loud, heavy, exhausting.
People might not understand what you’re going through.
They might think it’s simple. That you can just “snap out of it.”
But you and I both know it’s not that easy.
This isn’t about being weak.
This isn’t about not trying hard enough.
This is about the invisible fight—
the one where you’re trying to stay afloat
while something inside you is pulling you under.
If you’re here, it means you’re still fighting.
Even if it doesn’t feel like it.
And that matters.
You don’t have to explain everything perfectly.
You don’t have to have it all figured out.
You just have to take the next small step.
You’re not alone in this. Not here.
Free tools to help *
You can go to YouTube and look for Attention Training Videos:
Attention Training Technique (ATT) is a cognitive exercise designed to help you regain control over a "hijacked" brain by practicing the deliberate shifting of your focus away from internal noise. It works like physical therapy for your mind, strengthening your ability to disengage from intrusive thoughts and reconnect with the present world.